Who will she be?

Scarlett has got an attitude today y'all. Oh lord help me, my little bitty 1 pound 13 oz peanut has got an attitude.I'm shaking in my boots...

Really I am. What does this much attitude now mean for me later? I'm terrified. My momma always said she hoped I had a child worse than me. I think it came true. Be careful what you wish for momma cause you're the babysitter.

No, Scarlett is exactly as fiesty as she needs to be. Shes wiggling and kicking and waving her hands around. She's pulling at her CPAP mask. My child is a fighter. She is touch and she is strong. And she will be a force to be reckoned with.

And damn is she beautiful.She has the kind of beauty that takes my heart away. The kind of beauty that makes my heart hurt for all the little boys that are going to fall in love with her.

She's an angel. She's perfect. She is everything beautiful and unique and different that I want for my life.

I can't wait to see what kind of person she grows up to be. I already know she will be sweet and kind on the surface, but the kind of girl you just don't want to mess around with. I know this because that's how I will raise her.

But I want to know what kind of sense of humor she will have. Will she be clumsy like me or athletic like Ben? Will she like to read like me, or watch tv like daddy? Will school come naturally or will she have to work at it? Will she go against everything I tell her, to prove her own independence?

I have so many questions about her and who she is and will be. But I don't want to know just yet...I want my baby to grow fast enough to get out of here quickly, but slow enough that I can enjoy her. When it's time she will answer and tell me exactly who she is. Right now I'm content with Miss Scarlett, Mommy's baby asleep on my chest.